What a week..

So this week has been filled with nothing but Flippin' Burgers! I just finished up day 6 and still have one more day to go! In'N'Out Burger.... aww... I never would have thought three and half years ago that I would have stayed with the company this long, especially in management! It's been an interesting but great journey! I have had somewhat of a difficult week, just processing my goals and plans with the company. Overcoming fears, pride, and frustration. Seeing light at the end of a long week I am very appreciatative. I met someone when I went to Las Vegas (to open a new store) a third manager (one step above me). He's been really great to give me some motivation and tips on moving up to a higher position. Sometimes, I think we get complacent in our jobs, loosing sight of the big picture, and we just stay stuck at the same place. I have really been challenged this week to take the next step. To do what we all do everyday but do it better than anyone else. To learn and to grow from my mistakes, and to take initiative. No one is going to get a promotion for me... I have to do it. I am eager to learn and to grow, and am very excited for what the future holds.


On another note, I encountered such a huge blessing this week. I ran into an old friend at my little brother's football game. I have not seen or talked to this person in a year and randomly we ran into eachother. Anyhow, we ended up going to dinner and taking a late night run to the beach. It was so nice to catch up and talk about life. But the most amazing thing happened. In the midst of the chaos of life... through brokeness and heart ache... my friend found the Lord in a real and very alive kind of way. In a life changing way. It just blew me away at the conversation we had together. If that is not cool enough, as we were talking, he looked at me and said "You seem different now. You seem alive now, what changed?" At that moment it all dawned on me. I AM so alive. This past year and half since moving back to Lake Arrowhead has been probably one of the most amazing years of my life. Since I have been back, I have been able to resolve so many things. First off I have gained 10 pounds (if ya have been around at all you know that is a HUGE thing!!!!) I feel healthy, have energy, and can function way better. I got to resolve big things with my an old friend.... something I have held on to way to long. I have made peace with my family and get along great with everyone. I have invested a lot of time with my relationships with mom and little sister. HUGE BLESSINGS come from them. My dad and I get along great! I get to spend time with Brandon, even if its quick. I have overcome heart ache and a huge loss with the break up with Jason. But I am moving on in the midst of the loss... learning how to deal with it in a HEALTHY manner. I am learning to be content in being single and finding myself in my Creator. And my heart has been freed from everything that I use to hold onto. I no longer feel the pressure of living up to everyone's expecations or worry about being jugded. I am me, and this is where I am at and that is ok. I am learning to come into His presence just as I am... just where I am at and finding him there. I am liberated, rejuvinated, forgiven, and FREE. So by talking to my old friend I realized how amazing the Lord is in the midst of a lot of darkness.

It's been a hard, long and exhausting week. But I am content and I have peace.